October 4thOn this night, I embrace what I am.October 4th by ~Lazarus12
I embrace what I always have been.
Tonight I let myself flow onto my canvas
And paint with the movement of the sea.
I will free myself, from myself.
And if at all possible, I will let myself be who I am.
The Rat IIHere comes the rat againThe Rat II by ~Lazarus12
Clawing through my flesh again
This time he's got a friend
Ripping and tearing in
My flesh aches for strength!
Yet my soul reeks with weakness!
Come on then! Gnaw quicker!
Come on then! Sink deeper!
Infested vermin are worming through!
Their sickening lies becoming truth!
How can you rodents lie so easily?
How can you rodents live so fucking long?
Fuck your method!
Fuck your false sense of morals!
Fuck your self-righteous martyrdom for all your self-serving goals!
You vile creatures, how can you live with yourselves?
How can you even possibly begin to see the hurt you cause and the pain you create?
Restraint of the MindRestraint of the mindRestraint of the Mind by ~Lazarus12
Devoid of freedom for the soul
The gauntlet wrenches around my fist
Incapable of any sort of lucidity
Incapable of any kind of creativity
Incapable as a human being
Such a shame that potential is wasted
Such a shame that the capability of human is stifled by the poison of greed
Or even the seeds of envy
They wrap around the individual and drain their love for the arts
Their love of knowledge
Their love of anything for that matter
The love of life
The RatI lay in my bed.The Rat by ~Lazarus12
My left arm frozen above my head.
The rat besides me begins to squeal and gnaw,
Working its way in, behind my ear.
Now in the back of my mind it sits.
Access to all my memories.
Preventing my peace, but more importantly, my rest.
The Rat cackles and drags its tail across the deep scars.
Long nails etching false truths and hopes into my psyche.
I can't last much longer.
I scream at him in vain.
My words slurring with fear and futility.
Praying to any God that would listen.
But he won't go away.
I feel myself get up to run away.
But my body stays frozen where I lay.
My left arm still frozen.